“There are many ways that our mind protects us from present and past horrors. One way is by allowing us to forget. Forgetting is a constant fear in any writer’s life. For the immigrant writer, far from home, memory becomes an even deeper abyss. It is as if we had been forced to step under the notorious forgetting trees, the sabliyes, that our slave ancestors were told would remove their past from their heads and dull their desire to return home. We know we must pass under the tree, but we hold our breath and cross our fingers and toes and hope that the forgetting will not penetrate too deeply into our brains.
— Edwidge Danticat, Create Dangerously: The Immigrant Artist at Work (via coyotegold)
But what happens when we cannot tell our own stories, when our memories have temporarily abandoned us? What is left is longing for something we are not even sure we ever had but are certain we will never experience again.”
1. It’s okay to love the rain.
2. You will fall in love again, remember that the heart is a muscle.
3. Don’t hold your breath for 20 years before you scream. You’ll end up with the worst migraine of your life.
4. You never should feel guilty about saying no. You do not owe explanations.
5. Don’t try to make yourself love men for the comfort of the world, it will eventually drain you of your color.
6. Never be ashamed of your laugh.
7. Lots of things are scary in this world. Not everything that is scary will hurt you. When she asks you to trust her, trust her.
8. God lives inside of your skin.
9. Your body isn’t something to be embarrassed of, but to love. Someone else will love it too.
10. Your heart will threaten you, but don’t let it stop you.
11. There will come times when you will skip things you want to try to appear perfect: don’t do it. Smoke a cigarette, get drunk, go skinny dipping, dance when you don’t know how. Cuss. Cry when you feel it stinging your eyes. Perfect is unattainable and unrealistic, you want to be flawed and jagged. You want to be yourself, you want to be all of the rough edges.
12. If it doesn’t feel right, don’t do it. Don’t apologize. If you don’t trust them, don’t do it. Don’t apologize.
13. Don’t put off school.
14. You will heal.
15. They won’t accept you when you come out. Love them anyway. Show them what it means to be gentle.
16. You won’t be beneath your mothers fists and your fathers shadow forever.
17. Most importantly, you have to learn how to love yourself before you can love anyone else.” — 17 things I wish my 15 year old self knew || Scarlette La Vaillante (via scarlettethewriter)
What if you wake up one morning and you’re in bed with the love of your life and they have their arm around you and their snoring like a fucking ass hole, but you can’t help but to smile and you hear a baby crying and it finally hits you, you’ve made it.
you beat the demons inside you, the voices, the darkness.
I look forward to that, to knowing I made it.
this deserve so many notes
This is so uplifting